there seems to be buzz on google-specifically about my past & my court records both in Washington & CT.  i acted poorly 4 years ago after suffering a brutal attack by guy i was dating which has left me with permanent nerve damage that now prevents me from sprinting & took me away from over 15 years of 30 mile-per-week training.  i acted menacing because i spent nearly a year in physical therapy which @ the end they told me i could no longer run-& when i did try to run i get sharp shooting pain down my entire left side. i have all medical records to back this up–& the proof on my credit rating as i was not able to pay it off.

in 2007-you can read this blog from that year as i wrote extensively about it. i was detained in the hospital-put on medication & discharged. i did not harm anyone or anything. i spent 3 weeks walking from one of Seattle to the other.  i have since ceased contact with the person who caused me gravest harm that summer& have stopped patronizing his business.

as for my records in CT-i grew up in a domestic violence household & was nearly killed by my own father when i was 23. he was never arrested & never served anytime in jail for the 2nd degree assault. i have nerve damage from that as well. i ended up getting a restraining order against my parents which extended to them paying for my college education & for my apartment in New Haven. i was victim in that situation as well& have no criminal record stemming from it.

i have made mistakes in my life but i have learned from them & what i can say is that if you want to go digging around in my past & make blatantly by doing it on Google. i strongly suggest you send me an email-or better yet meet for a cup of coffee.  i am not a bad person-i don’t intentionally try to harm people but i do defend myself when i get put into a corner. which is why i am writing this. the other reason i am writing this is to publicly make my statement as i have nothing to hide & no reason cower.

i am dealing with a bullying neighbor right now-as a gesture of what kind of person i am. i am buying her a bouquet of tulips. next time you imply i am anything but the person i am maybe i will bomb you with tulips. because i believe in communication & talking smack is soo grade school.

well, i am now a couple of months into the whole wedding planning stuff.  that has been interesting. i was super excited to go to a dress shop & look for a dress-but when i got there i was fitted into Maternity bridesmaid dresses (i have a 29″ in waist) in hideous colors & the number one fabric was polyester. gross.  i went there because of a recommendation & great review. when i asked if they had any eco friendly dresses the sales rep implied that i couldn’t afford them! i found a super easy solution that i got from a store that specializes in non-sweat shop handmade clothing & that was Etsy.com. i have a dress-it’s beautiful & will travel well in my suitcase.

the second let down was a resort on the peninsula that had great food @ the wedding expo we went to & a professional & excellent sales rep. however, when we got there last weekend for my birthday. we realized within an hour of getting there that it was a mis-managed & spent the rest of the weekend running around to other parts of the peninsula. we found some great hikes for the dog.

i am one year older & can’t believe that i am 4 years away from being 40. i never thought i would live until i was 21. i am also excited-for my wedding & for the next part of my life to start. i have also discovered that i like yoga & have found a studio close by that does an great job-this spring i plan on going to yoga a few times a week. learning to focus on my breathing-& being in the present. as my yoga instructor says. Here. Now. when you think here you breathe in when you think Now you breathe out. something i remind myself of when i encounter mean people that breed small mean people. life is too short for that.