So, intially I thought I’d not have to write about this but I decided after last night that I should. I had initially started to see a therapist in a practice, & after very few sessions she tells me she can’t be my therapist after the end of May. I also really found her promising but such is murphy’s law.

I tell my GP that I would very much like a therapist & he calls me back pretty late one night & tells me that all the *free* therapists are all male & that there isn’t any female therapists available at the moment.

I tried therapy with the new one therapist in the private practice but she was really Green & had terrible table manners, making the sessions unpleasant. They also wanted to charge me $200 a sessions for a text book therapist straight out of medical school.

If you’re wondering what I did, I went back to my reliable, responsible therapist in the States. Sometimes when there’s system failure that’s what ends up happening. I am glad I did, I can rely on her & she knows me so there’s not any of that awkward, weird session stuff that always seem to be the case with a new therapist.

I feel pretty good, but frustrated in this healthcare system for all, that falls gravely short on people with mental illness. It’s a national shame that there isn’t more socially responsibility around this matter here in Norway. I am at awe, but not for the reason I couldn’t find a therapist, that my doctor couldn’t either. Now, that’s not right.

Also, what gave me hope was that my old, reliable therapist took me back. Something I am over the moon over & grateful. Sometimes you’re better off going with what you know, than trying something new.

I just finished “The History of Bees” by Maja Lunde; it was a hard read but worth every page. I think we have come to a breaking point with the Earth, the damage mankind has done is finally catching up to us. I write next to my trusted four legged companion who is also rare.

Soon mankind might be too, if we don’t stop what we are doing to the Earth. I remember in the 90’s when I was at Uni that nature was doing great. What did we have to worry about. Now, after almost every nation on Earth has started to try to slow down our own demise.

Soon, we won’t have proper drinking water, or food. Because we have been to busy spraying our own food with chemicals. Chemicals that go into our soil & our drinking water. In India they are facing dangerous water shortages & in California people are starting to have allergic reaction to the water they depend on.

Something has to start change, not just the waste we throw into the oceans but the waste we allow to build up on land. The endless use of plastic for Everything . What if we found otherways of packaging produce, electronics & other shopping items?

The world is on a stop watch, & the countdown to our own extinction is already happening. I wonder at the children, they’re future doomed because we insisted on cleaning with chemicals in our house & when we do laundry. What will become of them?

How old will the Earth allow them to become, before we are fighting for food, not oil. Water not contaminated by chemicals we have allowed to slip into it. No we don’t belong to earth, the Earth belongs to us. But ask yourself next time you reach for the bleach to clean your house, is that really a good idea?

So, here it is the height of Summer & tomorrow the rain sets in. It’s kinda like why bother shaving your legs when it’ll rain feeling. Only my top half in tan this year, something I don’t really care so much about. Since, I no longer lie outside to get a tan, that’ll be what it will be.

It’s been that kinda Summer, we hiked in the rain 2 weeks ago, & where near hypothermic when we where done. We could only see between 50-75 meters ahead of us while we hiked in the rain & fog. Of course the next day the sun came out, such is murphy’s law.

For the next 2 weeks it’s supposed to pour down rain everyday, so much for enjoying fellesferien outside. Guess, we need to travel to some place warmer if we want a tan. We’re traveling but not until the Fall. Something I am looking forward to. Meanwhile, I guess I will just have to dodge the tourists & hope for the best in my hunt for something new.