The government again said that we are in isolation till past Easter & that makes 5 weeks of being home. It doesn’t help that our elderly neighbor thinks I have COVID 19 because I was home before the order when into place. Something I find annoying that he would accuse of having something I don’t have, but then again he’s old & his trip abroad was just cancelled so I would be pretty pissed too.

Weather is dreadful today, a good day to stay in without feeling guilty about it. I am also in the risk group with my asthma and my fibromyalgia so I don’t really like taking transit or leaving the house. Tomorrow I have to run errands & I will be armed with sanitizer after the bus. I am kind of dreading it but on the other hand it will be great to get out of the house for a few hours.

The government has now imposed a 2 meter rule between people so it’ll be interesting tomorrow when I have run errands & go to the hospital to try to find out what’s wrong with my bowels. I am pretty used to the pain now, so it’s just annoying BUT I would still like to know what the hell is going on???

We have all the food we need for Easter in the freezer so all we have to get in a few onions & we’ll be fine. Maybe pick up some Easter candy tomorrow when I am running all over town.

Till next entry, if you’re in the risk group heed what they say & if you’re not, follow the restrictions in your area, they are there to minize the pandemic.

Since I have begun to go through old journals, I found a journal today from 18 years ago where I discuss a guy that I placed on a pedestal for years. What I discovered was that he wasn’t as amazing as I have been thinking or thought for years. Turns out he wanted to Mold me into something or someone else & didn’t accept me for the person I was.

I am grateful for my husband who does & accepts me for me, flaws & all. Something I am very happy for & that’s why we’re still together. He has never tried to change me into someone else. Even with the difficulties I have had he still see’s me for me. That’s probably why I love him so much.

But this changing you into something or someone else is not healthy, you have to be accept for the core person that you are. I realized today that, that love affair really wasn’t so amazing after all. He became controlling and manipulative in the brief time we where together which is why I ended things when I did. He accused me of ridiculous behavior & expected too much too fast something which is a HUGE red flag.

So hey that love affair was just that brief & for that I am grateful that I found my husband when I did. Sometimes you just know when you’ve met the Right person & they don’t try to control or manipulate you but love YOU, period.

I had to write again as I went into the city of Bergen this week & was greeted with empty streets & sidewalks. The city was eerie & it was uncomfortable to walk around as there was 25-30 people that I saw in the hour I was in there. The city was a desolate landscape & I found out that my favorite cafe is closing for 6 weeks. I was devasted to find this out as I rely on that place for both inspiration & a good cup of joe.

I walked by one of my favorite bakeries & it was empty, there was no one sitting by the windows eating or getting a bun to snack on. When I got to our independent grocery store I was relived to see people in the store. They where the oasis in the desert & I was so happy they where open!

We can see the highway from our house & it’s quiet, no more afternoon rush hour or morning congestion. The neighborhood where in is quiet & the buses are nearly empty. I went to the bus stop yesterday morning & I was the only one there. When I got to the bus stop where there’s usually students & families waiting for the bus there was just a man waiting for the bus.

All the college students have gone home or are in insolation in their apartments. I saw that a professor I know locally is now teaching online & they launched last night. Something that is very positive.

I am also grateful for the fact that my husband & I have a espresso machine at home so I can still drink good coffee while we are in isolation. I will miss my cafe that I used to go to write & socialize. I also like the ports are closed to cruise ships it will quiet down the city considerably in the next few months. They have closed the borders with Sweden & Denmark something I think is a bit drastic & the airplanes have stopped flying over our house.

I hope you’re well stocked on coffee & toilet paper. Till next time savour all those boring household chores.