For years I couldn’t eat fried noodles, as it was connected to one of the saddest decisions I’ve ever had to make. Just the smell of it would trigger sadness & loss.
I’m not going into what the decision entailed but it was life altering & not in that bright & happy way. My life was forever changed after a bowl of Yakisoba.
I’m grateful that after years of therapy I can enjoy a bowl again but it came at a cost to my self esteem & my own dreams.
Do you have trigger foods that bring up bad memories?
I believe in Hope & living gratefully everyday. No matter how hard things may get I believe in gratefulness. It’s not so much that I push it on others but I believe in it.
I think that there’s a clear difference between toxic positivity & gratefulness. I believe in being positive no matter what. People may judge me but I also believe in karma. What you yourself put out in the universe comes back. So if you’re mean & cruel that’ll come back to you.
In the last few years we’ve been through a ton of stuff. I feel that the neighborhood we moved to is itself toxic. If what our downstairs neighbor did is any indication. That people will listen to anything even if it’s not true. It is sad that adults would be that childish & cruel.
I finally confronted the psychopath next door today & in true fashion tried to gaslight me by calling me *crazy* that’s what abusers do to take heat off themselves.
I have evidence that he entered our house with his own key for over 2 years. As if it’s not enough that he masturbates when I shower. Something I find disgusting.
He & several other neighbors entered our house & doctored my shampoo so my hair would fall out. I still have every one of those bottles hidden in our house. I discovered it when I showered 2 years ago & all of a sudden my hair came out in clumps. It wasn’t stress or COVID but lye that he & his accomplices had put into my $25 a bottle shampoo.
He also orchestrated harassment by at least 10 people on our street to come up & attempt to break in between the hours of 2-5 am year round. Real immature & it had his name all over it.
Today he cut down parts of trees that are essentially ours. Without permission & I can tell you that if the remaining part of trees dies he will owe us compensation. I’m documenting his obviously bad chopping skills tomorrow with my phone. Video with narration & pictures.
Do I care that he called me *crazy* nope. That’s what abusive psychopaths do. Deferment by trying to shift blame back to the person they’ve victimized. Unfortunately I no longer lie down & play the victim I just document & document. As I see now I’ll clearly need it.
