I guess I’ve gotten to that age where I no longer feel desperate for friendships. I’m done chasing people that obviously don’t care.
I’ve had good friends that I’ve known since college, nearly 30 years. I may not see them constantly but they are in my life.
I’m becoming more grateful for the people that want to be in my life than the people that don’t. I’m simply done chasing people. That feels pretty good. It reminds me of my 20’s & all those ultimatums & grand plans I used to make with the guys I dated. No more living in that bubble of distortion.
Have you ever felt desperate for a friend?
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One response to “Contemplation”
Yes, I have. When I lay it before God, he simply handed it back to me and suggested I wasn’t looking in the right direction. I began pursuing Him with as much desperation as I’d been feeling for what I called friend. It’s not a perfect explanation, but somehow knowing that my first and best friend is my Maker, allows me to seek fellowship with others without the ache of someone not responding back… hugs