5 years ago i wrote in this blog that i thought that i would have to be on medication for the rest of my life-2 weeks ago that changed. i am happy and ecstatic to wake up feeling rested and no longer having a drug haze i have been living for the past 5 years. i am hoping within the next 6 months that my metabolism returns to normal and i lose the 30 drug pounds i have gained.
for the first time in 5 years i realize that i will always have distortions and as long as my brain can distinguish and auto correct i am on my path to drug free life. i am excited that i have gone down a pants size in the last couple of months and hope that will continue. in 9 days will be completely off medication and it feels great.
although it feels great to be out of the haze and to wake up with a clear head and be out of bed before 9am. no longer sleeping because my brain feels like mush. my life has changed plenty in 5 years but i feel grateful for the decisions i have made and hope that sometime this year i will get pregnant again-as motherhood is my next goal.
i am happy that Seattle has become my new town and all the cool people i know from the South to the North is why i feel like i made the right decision 12 years ago. can’t wait to strap on snowshoes this weekend and go hiking and then have nightcap at my favorite bar.